viernes, 25 de octubre de 2013

Car, diploma, canada, travel... too much One week

Salam aliekom to every one salam salam!!!, this week have been too much really now my plans of going canada have change because its better for me. if i get a diploma so my husband could have the chance to work while im there, also like the last years i did all the paper work for buying car so i was waiting so long that i even  forget about it this week the car sales men call me to tell me that the car is hereeeee and i only need to pay! and i dont have the money so i need to do a new credit and find the money that a no problem insh allah , also in november i will travel to atlanta to buy some cloth, and visit my aunt insh allah in venezuela we have something that we call cadivi so if you wanna get dollars you need to do a file full of paper for them and the only give you 3500 $$$$$$$$ DOLARS FOR YEARS :(  YEAHHHHH that is so sad but that reallity of venezuela.. we can not get free buying dollars like other countries! also im thiking to strengthen my english so i can present the eilts to study abroad, also i am doing another proyect in my life.

IM MAKING MY OWN COMPANY, yes my own bussines about scarf yeah i wanna handmake my own scarf and sell it online, that is my dream to make money so after i can open my own foundation to help abused children THAT IS MY BIGGEST BIGGEST BIGGEST BIGGEST DREAM!!!!!!! EVERRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!... insh allah in my next post i will present you my proyect..

lunes, 14 de octubre de 2013

Dusting my deen

Salam aleikom to every one salam salam! so hi again... i hope insh allah some muslim see this post, i wanna share with you people about this website productive muslim , i have seen the picture and the videos in ramadan time on youtube! but i never like was really interesting i was thinking like yeah another website about islam blah blah blah but OHHHHH MY GOD! MASH ALLAH ALEIKOM THISSSSS PEOPLE WHO MADE THIS ARE AMAZIN!!!  allah swt really give you long live so they keep doing this info that is not bored is so usefull and fun! to watch, so i decided so renovate my deen yeah to have like a goal my firts goal! to be a better muslimah yeah a better muslimah!, as strong is my feeling of going canada and give mine daughter a better life is even more important and i have a stronger feeling to give my daughter and better AFTER LIFE( paradise) insh allah, so i need to do a plan how to star read more quran, star praying fayr every day not like one day and after two days i dont! like really every day of my life, also praying on time, making more dua, helping other... and my biggest goals of all time is memorize the holy quran, insh allah! ...

also i find this website about so pretty image about islam... you need to check then out islam graphic also im gonna live some picture that i find so pretty! mash allah!!!!

miércoles, 9 de octubre de 2013

This week is THEEEE WEEK!!

Salam aleikom to every one salam salam! sooo hi to every one who read me! ... im so happy because i see everything is going so well in my life im doing all the paper work is need to be done so i go to canada insh allah yarab! today im gonna get the passport of my daughter and this friday insh allah i will marry!!!(i do wanna mention that i am already married by shariah i mean islamic way but not legaly in my country coz my hubby have so much trouble to get the birth certificate from hes country) finally insh allah.... my heart is beating so fast every is coming so easy insh allah and also this 14 october sylvia ( to venezuela so i can talk to her about my application in the institute ... and pay for that, yes insh allah insh allah i can have this done by this years and next year we can go to montreal to star a new proyect of life.

So guys im gonna let some pic!!! that inspire me so much!!!! bye

miércoles, 2 de octubre de 2013

Im getting legaly married yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... insh allah

salam aleikom to every one salam salam!!!so before here i had an entry about my life! but because i did so many crazy thing i deleted because i dont wanna you people think that i am crazy! but now im gonna put it back to my blog, as you know im divorce and now i am in my second marriage and very happy i have almost 2 years allhamdulillah with my husband and i have a beautifull baby girl, in a few days, i will get legaly married insh allah. We are married by islam, but we didnt married because here in my country they ask so many papers to marry with some one that its not from here, my husband is algerian soooo can you only imagine, finally allhamdulillah we put together all the paper to get married also this we need to do it, in orden to go canada so my husband and daughter can have visa by me insh allah ... so we are doing one more step, in the gooooo to CANADAAAAAAA !!!!

Hi my name is amanda but my muslim name is amirah but my family call me LA MUSU/ Hola mi nombre es amanda pero mi nombre islamico es amirah pero mi familia me llama LA MUSU

Hi my name is amanda , I`m 24 years old now , this is where I will capture a bit or just a summary of my life basically all started when I was born 10/11/88 in valencia , Venezuela , of a beautiful mother and father who always well looked after me and love me so much, i am the first child, the first grandchild , the first niece good end lets not speak of my childhood by was the best in order EXCELENT a dream, roses , unicorns wonderful things but the nightmare begins at 9 years old.
I remember so clear one day when i get from school and i see my mom crying in my room , my dad in the master bedroom and entered the room and asked my mom why are you crying? are you sad? YES she told me I asked why ? SHE said because your dad does not love me and is getting divorced from me ... My world collapse was the beginning of the worst, I asked my dad if he wanna get divorce from y mom he say yes but that doesnt mean i dont love your mom anymore, just i love her in another way, then finally they divorced years after that, but never had the opportunity to express myself and say how I felt during all those years , I was consumed inside the pain , the anguish , the hurts , my frustration that my home and my family was no longer what every child dreamed but a BIG LIE ( SH!!!!!!!!!T) at fifteen years old i fell into one of the strongest depressions , and one of the most difficult moments for me, my depression was so bad I wanted to die , it unleashed because my dad decides to go back with my mom and was another lie because he cheat on her again at the end was like always.
Well in my school and they direction and teacher realized of my situation so i went to therapy psychiatric treatment for one year in total, but largely affected me because during my childhood and adolescence due to problems much lost interest in my studies WAS MADE OF SUPER WORST I AM STUDENT AND EVEN THE COST ME MUCH FOR BEEN SO IRRESPONSIBLE AND  HAVE BAD HABITS WITH YEARS OF MY STUDIES BECAUSE IT HAS NOT BEEN EASY CHANGE , in order to pass by many universities graduate without any success . without knowing . or have , a diamond in life or goals and it sounds something that is not important GOALS ARE  super super IMPORTANT TO KNOW,  where you're going in life that you might want to accomplish in order .

Knowing Islam :

At 18 , was studying international studies in Caracas lived with my grandmother, AND I GET TO DO A MODEL OF ONU and play an Islamic country , and went to the mosque to search info and they  told me about Islam and I liked it so much I found such faith , such joy in Islam I felt , I feel it's the right thing is the best religion for me, I decided to convert to Islam , but perhaps for my father was the worst decision I ever made ​​the mistake of focusing on only Islam to stop studying once again resigns to studies and crazy life began in a decision-making where mistreat the love and affection that my family gave me all these years , but in my mind i did nothing wrong .
Because I say that mistreat my family? by my decisions?? you will see later

Going through various institutes and universities

First for UNEFA and to study mechanical ing when neither the multiplication table i know  FAIL
Second go to study in the English language school ( learned English but did not graduate) FAIL
Third study international studies at St. Mary in Caracas ( the second half, I didnt pass 4 classes of 6) FAIL
Fourth enroll in the iutav to study modern languages ​​( I escaped the another country to marry a foreigner yeah I ESCAPE) i mean SUPERHIPERMEGA FAIL FAIL.
Fifth studying business administration at a college near my house .... there I 'm missing 3 classes to graduate  but i dont know if i will finished bacuse i wanna study abroad is NOT a stronger impulse to stay here and finish here !
Sixth study in canadaaaaa and get a degree ! insh allah

Runing away

The first time I escape was to marry a foreigner , I went to Egypt alone, because in my religion is no boyfriends all married and in my mind to go was the best but I did it the hard way , I went  there and left my fool studies , i did not tell anyone even my parents ,  when i returns to the country my parents supported me again and I got another chance to so many thattheyI had been given ( OH GOD!! JUST GOD KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM ) , well then obviously that relationship failed, i was 21 years old and was a divorcee , which begins badly ends badly ... nobody can be happy at the expense of unhappiness third law of life mr .

Second time , as it 's more the second time if it was like the worst was the lesson OF MY LIFEEE but that of which one literally learns by HITS , I decided to go to Morocco and to marry again not because in my mind i was so stupid, I thought this time if it would work but I was the worst of the worst kick! the guy that i supposed to marry hit me, though was the best experience of my life get to sleep in an airport, to escape through the streets of Rabat , visit the bay , the market god ! at the end allhamdulillah i returned to my country with the tables in the head!!! like we latin says like i fail again, good this time i didnt waste the study and i came just a week before classes started on that trip A NEW LIKE HEALTHY LIFE! This experience opened my eyes honestly ALLAH SWT Dear God help me to think , when I again my parents support me to come help me .


Once I start working back and throw forward my career and what I do not like study but  is what is what I like are the languages ​​, cultures, traveling, meeting etc etc etc .

I knew for 3 months the love of my life my husband's name bibi ahmad who is older than me 20 years,man worker and a big big big heart we contacted by a sister in Islam , I met him and the I know when he such ask me to marry him like so fast after 3 month of knowing each other and that as much as I was Muslim and was not used to that and already a failure not want to marry so I suggested getting married by religion and date until we had monetary stability and moving in together and accept legally married , and Im soooooooooooooooo happy! I loved it , I love that man, the same day we got married , we consummated the marriage and two months later I got pregnant with my beautiful daughter sabrin CERTAINLY NOT YOU MENTION THAT ONE OF THE CAUSE FOR WHICH I divorced WITH FIRTS HUSBAND WAS BECAUSE MY FIRST AND I COULD NOT HAVE BABIES , so to get pregnant and have that family WAS THE BEST DREAM, TO MAKE THAT DREAM THAT HAVE THAT FAMILY THAT, my dad distroit nine years old! I lived what I HAVE to learn, now we are happy that good little much what we are and our goal is to go to canada to prepare to live, work and give a better future to our baby

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Hola mi nombre es amanda, tengo 24 años actualmente, aquí es donde voy a plasmar un poco o simplemente un resumen básicamente de mi vida todo comenzó el 10/11/88 cuando nací en valencia, Venezuela, de una hermosa madre y padre que siempre cuidaron bien y me amaron al máximo de parte de papa soy la primera hija, la primera nieta, la primera sobrina bueno en fin no hablare de mi infancia por fue EXCELENTEEEE lo mejor en fin cuento de rosas, unicornios cosas muy lindas pero la pesadilla empieza a los 9 años de edad.
Me acuerdo clarito cuando llegue del colegio y veo a mi mama llorando en mi cuarto, mi papa en el cuarto matrimonial y entro al cuarto y le pregunto a mi mama porque llora? que si estaba triste? me dijo SI le pregunte porque? me dijo porque tu papa ya no me quiere y se va a divorciar de mi... Mi mundo colapso fue el principio de lo peor le pregunte a mi papa y me dice si me divorciare y no es que no ame tu mama, si no que la quiero de otra forma, en fin después a los años de divorciaron pero nunca tuve la oportunidad de expresarme y decir como me sentía durante todo esos años, me consumía por dentro el dolor, la angustia, el sosiego, mi frustración que mi casa y mi familia ya no era lo que todo niño soñaba si no una GRAN MENTIRA( UNA MIER.....AAA) a los quince explote y caí en una de las depresiones mas fuertes, y uno de los momentos mas difícil para mi, era tan fuerte mi depresión que deseaba morirme, lo desato porque mi papa decide volver con mi mama y a la final todo era mentiraaaa, como siempre pero bueh.
Bueno en mi colegio se dieron cuenta y estuve en tratamiento psiquiátrico por un año como en total, pero en gran parte me afecto porque durante mi niñez y mi adolescencia gracias a los problemas perdí mucho interés en mis estudios de HECHO ERA DE LO PEOR SUPER MAL ESTUDIANTE Y AUN LO SOY ME CUESTA MUCHO SER RESPONSABLE Y DURANTE TANTO AÑOS DE MALAS COSTUMBRES CON MIS ESTUDIOS PUES NO HA SIDO FÁCIL CAMBIAR, en fin al graduarme pase por muchas universidades y sin éxito ninguna. sin saber. ni tener, un rombo en la vida ni metas y aunque suene algo que no tenga importancia es super super IMPORTANTE TENER METAS SABER  a donde quieres ir en la vida que quieres ser que quieres lograr en fin. DIRECCION.

Conociendo el islam:

A los 18, estaba estudiando estudios internacionales en caracas vivía con mi abuela me toco realizar un modelo de la ONU me toco un país islámico, y fui a la mezquita me hablaron de islam y me gusto tanto encontré tanta fe, tanta alegría en el islam, sentía , siento que es lo correcto que es la mejor religión para mi, decidí convertirme al islam, pero quizás para mi papa fue la peor decisión de mi vida cometí el error de enfocarme tanto en el islam que deje de estudiar una vez mas renuncie a los estudios y comenzó la vida loca de una manera tomas de decisión donde maltrataria el amor y cariño que mi  familia me daba, aunque dentro de mi mente no hacia nada malo.
Porque digo que maltrataria a mi familia? por mis decisiones ya verán mas adelante

Pasar por varios institutos e universidades

Primero por la unefa y que para estudiar ing mecanica cuando ni la tabla de multiplicar me la se FAIL
Segundo irme a estudiar en la escuela de idiomas ingles( aprendí ingles pero no me gradué, raspeeee ) FAIL
Tercero estudiar estudios internacionales en la santa maría en caracas (el segundo semestre me quedaron 4 materias de 6) FAIL
Cuarto inscribirme en el iutav para estudiar idiomas modernos ( me escape del pais para casarme con un extranjero si ME ESCAPE) SUPERHIPERMEGA FAIL OSEA FAIL DE 5 ESTRELLAS COMO QUIEN DIRIA
Quinto estudiar admin de empresa en un instituto cerca de mi casa .... hay voy me falta 3 materias para graduarme dios mediante lo lograre aunque mi viaje para canada y estudiar en el extranjero es un impulso mas fuerte que quedarme aqui y terminar aqui!
 Sexto estudiar en canadaaaaa y graduarmeee!!! insh allah

La primera vez que me escape fue para casarme con un extranjero, me fui a Egipto sola, porque en mi religión no hay novios todo es casarse y en mi mente al irme era lo mejor aunque lo hice de la peor manera, me fui deje mis estudios engañe, a mis padres no le dije a nadie, regrese al país mis padres me apoyaron de nuevo y me dieron una oportunidad de tantas que ya me habían dado (DIOS MIO LOS AMO) , bueno después esa relación fracaso obviamente a mis 21 ya era una mujer divorciada, lo que empieza mal termina mal ... nadie puede ser feliz a costa de la infelicidad de terceros ley de vida sres.

Segunda vez, como sino fuera poco la segunda vez si que fue como que la peor fue la lección pero así de las arrechas las que uno literalmente, aprende a GOLPES, decidí irme a marruecos y que a casarme de nuevo no se porque en mi mente tan estúpida pensé que esta vez si funcionaria me fue pero de lo peor de la patada lo peor el tipo hasta me pego aunque fue la experiencia mejor de mi vida llegue a dormir en un aeropuerto, a escaparme por las calles de rabat, visitar la bahia, el mercado dios! ala final volví a mi país con las tablas en la cabeza lo bueno de esta vez que no renuncie a los estudies llegue justo una semana antes que empezaran las clases en ese viaje sinceramente me abrieron los ojos ALLAH SWT diosito me ayude a reflexionar, cuando vuelvo de nuevo mis padres me apoyan me ayudan a surgir .


Una vez que regreso  empiezo a trabajar y echarle ganas a mi carrera y a lo que estudio que no me gusta pero bueh es lo que hay lo que me gusta son los idiomas, culturas, viajar, conocer etc etc etc.

a los 3 meces conozco el amor de mi vida bibi mi esposo se llama ahmad me lleva 20 años si, un hombre obrero sin hijos soltero y con un gran gran gran corazón nos contactamos por medio de una hermana en el islam , lo conocí y al momento de conocerme me pidió matrimonio y yo que por mucho que ya yo era musulmana no estaba acostumbrada a eso y ya con un fracaso no quería casarme así que le propuse casarnos por la religión y salir hasta que tuviésemos la estabilidad monetaria y irnos a vivir juntos y casarnos legalmente el acepto, y yo feliz! me encantaba, me encanta ese hombre, el mismo día de casarnos, consumamos el matrimonio y a los dos meses salí embarazada de sabrin mi bella hija POR CIERTO NO LES MENCIONE QUE UNA DE LAS CAUSA POR LAS CUAL ME DIVORCIE CON MI PRIMER ESPOSO ERA PORQUE Y QUE NO PODÍA TENER BEBES, asi que al salir embarazada y tener esa familia que tanto deseaba que mi papa destrozo a los 9 años ese sueño al FINNNNNNNNNNN yo lo vivía lo tenia LO TENGO yo en mis manos y ahora bueno somos felices que poco que mucho lo somos y nuestro objetivo es irnos a canada a preparamos a vivir , a trabajar y darle un mejor futuro a nuestra nena

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