CAQ + Waiting

salam aleikom salam salam

long time i didnt write just wanna let you know that im doing the CAQ , and also that my husband still dont have the residence of venezuela that the suposse to give him this year now we have to appeal that desition , also its we have to reapply for the turist visa of EEUU so its easy for us to travel canada insh allah

its so hard to wait and be patience i dont know what to do

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Waiting like a patience

Salam aleikom to every one salam salam! how are you every one?

i wanna update you in all

ok so for the results of the IELTS i got 5.5 actually its more that i even expected because i didnt study at all with all the situation that its happening in my country i find it really hard to study.

Also finally i have the passport in my hands my new passport allhamdulillah now im just waiting for the passport of my husband because hes doing the residence of venezuela if i dont have the passport of him i can not start any tramit to go an study in canada insh allah

i am much worried because in 21 april we have the appointment  for the american visa of my daughter and my husband

also beside that in my work they have block me all the webpage i only have access to a few including goverment pages so it will be hard for me write in my blog.

yesterday was kind of a big day for my husband he had the chance to take hes best friend with hes wife and daughter to the airport because they went to costarica to live there, immediately after he land it to costarica

connect to skype to chat with my husband and tell him how beautifull and clean and peacefull its costa rica how he went to the bakery and he didnt even have to do the line for buy a piece of bread OMG that something that broke my hearts how we get shock with other countries were everything its normal

insh allah every goes as allah swt want and help us to get out of venezuela to have a better life 

Passport

salam aleikom to every one salam salam!, finally after 4 month and a half i have the passport of my daughter , now i can apply for the turist visa, so we can visit family and insh allah when i go canada we can be able to touch american territory what i mean that if i buy the tiket for toronto or vancouver i can make layover in usa, i only need to wait for my passport that i renew it ! and also present the ielts, and legalize all the education paper... till then bye bye

Making my life in order

Salam aleikom to every one salam salam! as usual im soooo nervous and worried, because im thinking all the options what its the best for me in study carrer subject also because i have so much in my head so many stuff i need to that its gonna drive me crazy, i need a notebook i mean a journal or maybe a lifebook i just found The most georgeos and lovely lifebook ever for 2014 it is a islamic one but i can not get it because its only in EURO soooo im kind sad for that anyways i wanna show you if you are muslim maybe you can be able to buy it!, also i just found allhamd a girl that will help me to study for the IELTS so im less stressfull about that allhamdulillah this next monday i will take the photo for my new passport because my another one i dont know where it went! yeah i lost it ! always writting make my day insh allah with hard work my english will improved insh allah 

bye 2013. HI 2014

Salam aleikom to every one salam salam!, Happy new year to every one , last year for me was so exited and in a rush , this years insh allah will be a very important year where i will follow my dreams, but to do that i need to change some stuff about me, i wanted to chat chat about that i wanna become an organized person why? i see when you are organized every thing in life is more easy because you have an schedule for every thing and because this year will be so bussy for me i need to do that ! also i wanna do a diet mostly because i really need to learn have good food habit for myself ...

also my canada study proyect its going well next week i will present a mini test so i can do a course to take english classes to improve my english so insh allah you will be seen a better redaction on my blog i need do that course for the IELTS that im going to take on march , after that i will be able to submit the apliccation for the university in canada... Big dream, big Hope, Big Fight!!!!  2014

Paper work that needs to be done

salam aleikom every one salam salam!

GOING TO STUDY AT CANADA ITS GONNA DRIVE CRAZY SO MUCH TO DO =====================

For now i need some paper work to be done like

1. A new passport for me , far as a know the canadian visa will be valid the time of the passport i mean if your passport if for 4 years as well will be the canadian visa so that why i need to get a new one for me.
2. I need the passport of my babygirl , i all ready did it but im waiting they send it to the office .
3. The venezuelan residence of my husband because he for 2014 will be 5 years living here in venezuela so he can get the residence and also for apply for the canadian visa they need every one its residence.

beside that also i need the study paper like

1. certification high school degree 
2. the notes or maybe marks i dont know how to write it of the escolare .
3. they ask me 3 letter of recomendation from 3 teacher
4. also have made the IELTS test

What now? i mean what its next...

Salam aleikom to every one salam salam , long time i didnt get the chance to write in my blog and i miss it so much , well i went for a week to usa for buy some clothes for my baby and my husband since they dont have visa, i went by my self and it was so awfull because i miss my little baby so much, insh allah for next year they will come with me so we take a little vacations ...

ok back to canada subject im sooooo sad soooo sad and tired i really wanna go there to study and live, so i found that if i do the french course my husband will not have like work permit , so i star to search about university and i got little crazy because its not something that easy , after i came from usa i found this amazing university that i will tell ya later .

for now i just wanna let you know that i need to take IELTS in order to apply to this university so all my time it will focus in study for IELTS test

by the way also i wanna after i came from usa i was little big depress because there everything is sooo clean and people have every thing its not like venezuela at all, i mean americans people work ALOT WHEN I MEAN ALOT THAT ALOT but they have the chance to live well and also they have more opportunities to have like a house and car in a short period of time ... insh allah everything goes like allah swt want so we can go canada for study and work , i will keep you update it.

hey also i almost forget i was in atlanta in aunty house a little town call duluth 

This week is THEEEE WEEK!!

Salam aleikom to every one salam salam! sooo hi to every one who read me! ... im so happy because i see everything is going so well in my life im doing all the paper work is need to be done so i go to canada insh allah yarab! today im gonna get the passport of my daughter and this friday insh allah i will marry!!!(i do wanna mention that i am already married by shariah i mean islamic way but not legaly in my country coz my hubby have so much trouble to get the birth certificate from hes country) finally insh allah.... my heart is beating so fast every is coming so easy insh allah and also this 14 october sylvia (www.vivaencanada.com)come to venezuela so i can talk to her about my application in the institute ... and pay for that, yes insh allah insh allah i can have this done by this years and next year we can go to montreal to star a new proyect of life.

So guys im gonna let some pic!!! that inspire me so much!!!! bye

Hi my name is amanda but my muslim name is amirah but my family call me LA MUSU/ Hola mi nombre es amanda pero mi nombre islamico es amirah pero mi familia me llama LA MUSU

Hi my name is amanda , I`m 24 years old now , this is where I will capture a bit or just a summary of my life basically all started when I was born 10/11/88 in valencia , Venezuela , of a beautiful mother and father who always well looked after me and love me so much, i am the first child, the first grandchild , the first niece good end lets not speak of my childhood by was the best in order EXCELENT a dream, roses , unicorns wonderful things but the nightmare begins at 9 years old.

I remember so clear one day when i get from school and i see my mom crying in my room , my dad in the master bedroom and entered the room and asked my mom why are you crying? are you sad? YES she told me I asked why ? SHE said because your dad does not love me and is getting divorced from me ... My world collapse was the beginning of the worst, I asked my dad if he wanna get divorce from y mom he say yes but that doesnt mean i dont love your mom anymore, just i love her in another way, then finally they divorced years after that, but never had the opportunity to express myself and say how I felt during all those years , I was consumed inside the pain , the anguish , the hurts , my frustration that my home and my family was no longer what every child dreamed but a BIG LIE ( SH!!!!!!!!!T) at fifteen years old i fell into one of the strongest depressions , and one of the most difficult moments for me, my depression was so bad I wanted to die , it unleashed because my dad decides to go back with my mom and was another lie because he cheat on her again at the end was like always.

Well in my school and they direction and teacher realized of my situation so i went to therapy psychiatric treatment for one year in total, but largely affected me because during my childhood and adolescence due to problems much lost interest in my studies WAS MADE OF SUPER WORST I AM STUDENT AND EVEN THE COST ME MUCH FOR BEEN SO IRRESPONSIBLE AND  HAVE BAD HABITS WITH YEARS OF MY STUDIES BECAUSE IT HAS NOT BEEN EASY CHANGE , in order to pass by many universities graduate without any success . without knowing . or have , a diamond in life or goals and it sounds something that is not important GOALS ARE  super super IMPORTANT TO KNOW,  where you're going in life that you might want to accomplish in order .

Knowing Islam :

At 18 , was studying international studies in Caracas lived with my grandmother, AND I GET TO DO A MODEL OF ONU and play an Islamic country , and went to the mosque to search info and they  told me about Islam and I liked it so much I found such faith , such joy in Islam I felt , I feel it's the right thing is the best religion for me, I decided to convert to Islam , but perhaps for my father was the worst decision I ever made ​​the mistake of focusing on only Islam to stop studying once again resigns to studies and crazy life began in a decision-making where mistreat the love and affection that my family gave me all these years , but in my mind i did nothing wrong .

Because I say that mistreat my family? by my decisions?? you will see later

Going through various institutes and universities

First for UNEFA and to study mechanical ing when neither the multiplication table i know  FAIL

Second go to study in the English language school ( learned English but did not graduate) FAIL

Third study international studies at St. Mary in Caracas ( the second half, I didnt pass 4 classes of 6) FAIL

Fourth enroll in the iutav to study modern languages ​​( I escaped the another country to marry a foreigner yeah I ESCAPE) i mean SUPERHIPERMEGA FAIL FAIL.

Fifth studying business administration at a college near my house .... there I 'm missing 3 classes to graduate  but i dont know if i will finished bacuse i wanna study abroad is NOT a stronger impulse to stay here and finish here !

Sixth study in canadaaaaa and get a degree ! insh allah

Runing away

The first time I escape was to marry a foreigner , I went to Egypt alone, because in my religion is no boyfriends all married and in my mind to go was the best but I did it the hard way , I went  there and left my fool studies , i did not tell anyone even my parents ,  when i returns to the country my parents supported me again and I got another chance to so many thattheyI had been given ( OH GOD!! JUST GOD KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM ) , well then obviously that relationship failed, i was 21 years old and was a divorcee , which begins badly ends badly ... nobody can be happy at the expense of unhappiness third law of life mr .

Second time , as it 's more the second time if it was like the worst was the lesson OF MY LIFEEE but that of which one literally learns by HITS , I decided to go to Morocco and to marry again not because in my mind i was so stupid, I thought this time if it would work but I was the worst of the worst kick! the guy that i supposed to marry hit me, though was the best experience of my life get to sleep in an airport, to escape through the streets of Rabat , visit the bay , the market god ! at the end allhamdulillah i returned to my country with the tables in the head!!! like we latin says like i fail again, good this time i didnt waste the study and i came just a week before classes started on that trip A NEW LIKE HEALTHY LIFE! This experience opened my eyes honestly ALLAH SWT Dear God help me to think , when I again my parents support me to come help me .

Present

Once I start working back and throw forward my career and what I do not like study but  is what is what I like are the languages ​​, cultures, traveling, meeting etc etc etc .

I knew for 3 months the love of my life my husband's name bibi ahmad who is older than me 20 years,man worker and a big big big heart we contacted by a sister in Islam , I met him and the I know when he such ask me to marry him like so fast after 3 month of knowing each other and that as much as I was Muslim and was not used to that and already a failure not want to marry so I suggested getting married by religion and date until we had monetary stability and moving in together and accept legally married , and Im soooooooooooooooo happy! I loved it , I love that man, the same day we got married , we consummated the marriage and two months later I got pregnant with my beautiful daughter sabrin CERTAINLY NOT YOU MENTION THAT ONE OF THE CAUSE FOR WHICH I divorced WITH FIRTS HUSBAND WAS BECAUSE MY FIRST AND I COULD NOT HAVE BABIES , so to get pregnant and have that family WAS THE BEST DREAM, TO MAKE THAT DREAM THAT HAVE THAT FAMILY THAT, my dad distroit nine years old! I lived what I HAVE to learn, now we are happy that good little much what we are and our goal is to go to canada to prepare to live, work and give a better future to our baby

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Hola mi nombre es amanda, tengo 24 años actualmente, aquí es donde voy a plasmar un poco o simplemente un resumen básicamente de mi vida todo comenzó el 10/11/88 cuando nací en valencia, Venezuela, de una hermosa madre y padre que siempre cuidaron bien y me amaron al máximo de parte de papa soy la primera hija, la primera nieta, la primera sobrina bueno en fin no hablare de mi infancia por fue EXCELENTEEEE lo mejor en fin cuento de rosas, unicornios cosas muy lindas pero la pesadilla empieza a los 9 años de edad.

Me acuerdo clarito cuando llegue del colegio y veo a mi mama llorando en mi cuarto, mi papa en el cuarto matrimonial y entro al cuarto y le pregunto a mi mama porque llora? que si estaba triste? me dijo SI le pregunte porque? me dijo porque tu papa ya no me quiere y se va a divorciar de mi... Mi mundo colapso fue el principio de lo peor le pregunte a mi papa y me dice si me divorciare y no es que no ame tu mama, si no que la quiero de otra forma, en fin después a los años de divorciaron pero nunca tuve la oportunidad de expresarme y decir como me sentía durante todo esos años, me consumía por dentro el dolor, la angustia, el sosiego, mi frustración que mi casa y mi familia ya no era lo que todo niño soñaba si no una GRAN MENTIRA( UNA MIER.....AAA) a los quince explote y caí en una de las depresiones mas fuertes, y uno de los momentos mas difícil para mi, era tan fuerte mi depresión que deseaba morirme, lo desato porque mi papa decide volver con mi mama y a la final todo era mentiraaaa, como siempre pero bueh.

Bueno en mi colegio se dieron cuenta y estuve en tratamiento psiquiátrico por un año como en total, pero en gran parte me afecto porque durante mi niñez y mi adolescencia gracias a los problemas perdí mucho interés en mis estudios de HECHO ERA DE LO PEOR SUPER MAL ESTUDIANTE Y AUN LO SOY ME CUESTA MUCHO SER RESPONSABLE Y DURANTE TANTO AÑOS DE MALAS COSTUMBRES CON MIS ESTUDIOS PUES NO HA SIDO FÁCIL CAMBIAR, en fin al graduarme pase por muchas universidades y sin éxito ninguna. sin saber. ni tener, un rombo en la vida ni metas y aunque suene algo que no tenga importancia es super super IMPORTANTE TENER METAS SABER  a donde quieres ir en la vida que quieres ser que quieres lograr en fin. DIRECCION.

Conociendo el islam:

A los 18, estaba estudiando estudios internacionales en caracas vivía con mi abuela me toco realizar un modelo de la ONU me toco un país islámico, y fui a la mezquita me hablaron de islam y me gusto tanto encontré tanta fe, tanta alegría en el islam, sentía , siento que es lo correcto que es la mejor religión para mi, decidí convertirme al islam, pero quizás para mi papa fue la peor decisión de mi vida cometí el error de enfocarme tanto en el islam que deje de estudiar una vez mas renuncie a los estudios y comenzó la vida loca de una manera tomas de decisión donde maltrataria el amor y cariño que mi  familia me daba, aunque dentro de mi mente no hacia nada malo.

Porque digo que maltrataria a mi familia? por mis decisiones ya verán mas adelante

Pasar por varios institutos e universidades

Primero por la unefa y que para estudiar ing mecanica cuando ni la tabla de multiplicar me la se FAIL

Segundo irme a estudiar en la escuela de idiomas ingles( aprendí ingles pero no me gradué, raspeeee ) FAIL

Tercero estudiar estudios internacionales en la santa maría en caracas (el segundo semestre me quedaron 4 materias de 6) FAIL

Cuarto inscribirme en el iutav para estudiar idiomas modernos ( me escape del pais para casarme con un extranjero si ME ESCAPE) SUPERHIPERMEGA FAIL OSEA FAIL DE 5 ESTRELLAS COMO QUIEN DIRIA

Quinto estudiar admin de empresa en un instituto cerca de mi casa .... hay voy me falta 3 materias para graduarme dios mediante lo lograre aunque mi viaje para canada y estudiar en el extranjero es un impulso mas fuerte que quedarme aqui y terminar aqui!

 Sexto estudiar en canadaaaaa y graduarmeee!!! insh allah

Escape

La primera vez que me escape fue para casarme con un extranjero, me fui a Egipto sola, porque en mi religión no hay novios todo es casarse y en mi mente al irme era lo mejor aunque lo hice de la peor manera, me fui deje mis estudios engañe, a mis padres no le dije a nadie, regrese al país mis padres me apoyaron de nuevo y me dieron una oportunidad de tantas que ya me habían dado (DIOS MIO LOS AMO) , bueno después esa relación fracaso obviamente a mis 21 ya era una mujer divorciada, lo que empieza mal termina mal ... nadie puede ser feliz a costa de la infelicidad de terceros ley de vida sres.

Segunda vez, como sino fuera poco la segunda vez si que fue como que la peor fue la lección pero así de las arrechas las que uno literalmente, aprende a GOLPES, decidí irme a marruecos y que a casarme de nuevo no se porque en mi mente tan estúpida pensé que esta vez si funcionaria me fue pero de lo peor de la patada lo peor el tipo hasta me pego aunque fue la experiencia mejor de mi vida llegue a dormir en un aeropuerto, a escaparme por las calles de rabat, visitar la bahia, el mercado dios! ala final volví a mi país con las tablas en la cabeza lo bueno de esta vez que no renuncie a los estudies llegue justo una semana antes que empezaran las clases en ese viaje sinceramente me abrieron los ojos ALLAH SWT diosito me ayude a reflexionar, cuando vuelvo de nuevo mis padres me apoyan me ayudan a surgir .

Actualidad

Una vez que regreso  empiezo a trabajar y echarle ganas a mi carrera y a lo que estudio que no me gusta pero bueh es lo que hay lo que me gusta son los idiomas, culturas, viajar, conocer etc etc etc.

a los 3 meces conozco el amor de mi vida bibi mi esposo se llama ahmad me lleva 20 años si, un hombre obrero sin hijos soltero y con un gran gran gran corazón nos contactamos por medio de una hermana en el islam , lo conocí y al momento de conocerme me pidió matrimonio y yo que por mucho que ya yo era musulmana no estaba acostumbrada a eso y ya con un fracaso no quería casarme así que le propuse casarnos por la religión y salir hasta que tuviésemos la estabilidad monetaria y irnos a vivir juntos y casarnos legalmente el acepto, y yo feliz! me encantaba, me encanta ese hombre, el mismo día de casarnos, consumamos el matrimonio y a los dos meses salí embarazada de sabrin mi bella hija POR CIERTO NO LES MENCIONE QUE UNA DE LAS CAUSA POR LAS CUAL ME DIVORCIE CON MI PRIMER ESPOSO ERA PORQUE Y QUE NO PODÍA TENER BEBES, asi que al salir embarazada y tener esa familia que tanto deseaba que mi papa destrozo a los 9 años ese sueño al FINNNNNNNNNNN yo lo vivía lo tenia LO TENGO yo en mis manos y ahora bueno somos felices que poco que mucho lo somos y nuestro objetivo es irnos a canada a preparamos a vivir , a trabajar y darle un mejor futuro a nuestra nena

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